Sometimes you just have to throw caution to the wind and go with what your heart is telling you.
Maybe this whole crazy mess of moving to Sweden was to bring me to my soulmate? I feel like every cell is more alive when I am around him, I'm buzzed and on a sugar high where you just crack up all the time at nothing because just being alive makes you smile and laugh.
I know it's not smart. I know I have important and scary and horrible sh*t that I need to deal with, but just for right now, I need to be with him or the world will fall off its orbit and nothing will be worth it. Because isn't being alive about being in love?
I'm not going to fight The Ex on anything, I don't care. No amount of money or half our house back in the US or even this apartment is worth trouble and stress and strife. I'm a strong independent woman and I can support myself - check me out, I guess I'm more Swedish than I thought!! I don't need a penny from him, I have my new opportunities and I have love and health and happiness. And he can just take a long walk off a short cliff.