Damn, I hate to admit this... but I chickened out. Yeah I know! I was so set to go, but then... I dunno. I was kind of intimidated by the Sarcastic Bartender Chicky, and even though I'm pretty tough and brave, going to a bar at night by myself was just a little bit step too far.
Plus... okay this is going to sound kind of crazy, so can we keep it just between us m'kay?
I was a little scared to see him again. I mean. I have had SO much disappointment in my life lately, and he was just so awesome and perfect and mind-blowing, and I just wanted to keep that impression a little while, just for me. You know?
I WILL track him down again, and I WILL NOT be disappointed, but I just wasn't in a place where I wanted to take a risk. I don't know if staying in and watching TV in a bad mood is truly being kind to myself, but it is what needed to happen that night.
But this is another week... we'll see how I feel.
|Mystery Man a little longer...|