Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh crap. Basically. I screwed up. There I said it. I'm not perfect, I'm just human like anybody but I did something and it's biting me on the ass and okay I deserve it but I get to complain a little I think, I didn't mean any harm!!!!! And I've had it a little bit tough I think most people would agree so I get to screw up every now and then. I just don't understand why people can't be reasonable and not expect things of people that just aren't going to happen and I don't see why I am supposed to be responsible for things other people thought. I mean, how am I supposed to control what people think? Do I look like a Jedi to you? I haven't been working out so much lately (more on that in a while... *sigh*) but I'm not exactly Jabba the Hut yet!!!!!
It's a beautiful sunny day here in Stockholm, even if it is pretty cold. I am going to go a walk to the water and look out over it and take deep breaths and decide what I'm going to do. Or I'm just going to sit here and stew and bite my nails for a while. One or the other.